The Connection [homoaffective tale in 5 parts]

The Connection [homoaffective tale in 5 parts] [paulo césar ebbano moreira] Part 1 - Connection and Reincarnation Difficult to understand. I was sitting in that room a few minutes ago. It was like closing your eyes. It was a wink. A light in the eyes. An urge to yawn. I suddenly started to faint. Like fainting. A feeling of lightness and pleasure. So I felt weak, but satisfied. He looked like he was lying down, but he was standing. The body fell a little bit here, and I started to get up. The child's cry. A hard time! I screamed. It hurt. I was born. Expectantly, I was born again. I was between the living room and the bedroom. A pink room and a lugubrious room. In the living room many were crying and in the bedroom many were smiling. A very strong light developed mixed situations. It was as if a baby's cry was a Gregorian chant and an adage for strings by Oswald Barber! I was hungry and they gave me a breast with milk. I couldn't speak. Suddenly, everything was dark and my eyes opened again. I looked at the ceiling and breathed against a woman's chest. Someone touched me and I started trying to say that I was fine. But only a small groan came out. And I saw an ivory smile from a black man. I wondered what black man was that in my mind, but I couldn't speak. The night came as if it were possible to say a sound that did not exist in my mouth! And I was noxiously there at home. In my house. I was sitting and reading the newspaper on my favorite news app and choosing, at the same time, what I was going to eat this dinner with my wife and family. I received a message on WhatsApp and it was my daughter saying not to forget to buy the wine this Friday, because it was Aunt Fátima's birthday. And I answered in an audio that I would not forget. I got off at the subway station on the yellow Morumbi line, and left as if stumbling and tired. Then I got dizzy and I almost fell. A woman gave me a poke and cursed any swear words and I smiled yellow. I looked at a wristwatch and it was 4:00 pm. I received an SMS saying "do you know what the Connection is?" and I would delete it, but a link interested me and I decided to save the message. I went to the garage where I always leave my car and thanked the man who doesn't know his name, but is always nice to me. I drove the car to Rodovia Raposo Tavares and crossed the so-called Avenida Eliseu de Almeida or "Avenida Nova" near Taboão da Serra and close to Shopping Raposo. I parked in the mall parking lot and went to look for the red wine my daughter had ordered at the DIA% supermarket. I found a good Argentine wine and paid in cash. Everyone smiled. It was a quiet day and I was in a good mood. I left Raposo Shopping and drove to the condominium where my family and I live. My wife opened the door and said "You won't believe it!" in tears, he explained that my father-in-law had passed away and that Tia Fátima's birthday party had been canceled. I tried to comfort my wife and I put the wine in the cellar of our apartment. We held each other for a little while until she stopped crying. Soon, my daughter came and saw us and started asking what happened and soon my wife reported it. We calmed down and were silent. After the funeral, sit on the living room sofa listening to "adagio for strings" by Oswald Barber and some arias from "Norma" by Bellini! "Casta Diva" sang Maria Callas when I decided to enter the SMS link that opened the Google Chrome page and started reading about the Connection. "Do you know what connects us?" the call said; "Perhaps there is reincarnation" "Do you believe?" I thought of my father-in-law who was recently buried. I continued reading: "The difficulty of living outside the Connection expands every day. But what to do when the Connection ends? The Connection is where we live. There are three forms of life: Connected, in the Flow or Ostracism. The Connection is where we are connected in everything and everyone, Flux is where we continue to be guided by everything and everyone and Ostracism which is without social contacts and without guides! " I was following my reading when the phone rang! I answered and the login dropped. Then another call! And the connection dropped again. I continue reading: "Do you believe in life after death?" "What happens when we die?" There is a LIGHT plan that welcomes us and a DENSE DARK plan that brings us inside. Was it HEAVEN and HELL? What is the CONNECTION? " To be continued...